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Sabrina Gauer

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Healing Isn’t Particularly Beautiful

“All who have been graciously, sovereignly, compassionately touched by the Savior and received the healing blood of his cross, we can see. Yes we all, like this guy from Bethsaida, have some blurriness of sight. But, don’t look away discouraged. See the Savior touch again. See him dip his finger in the great ocean of his blood and reapply. We are seeing better. We are loving more. This is due to the Savior’s powerful and gracious compassion.” — Erik Raymond

Jesus’ ministry here on earth in human form was short (around 33ish years, to be exact). But a major part of that ministry was physical healing. These miracles weren’t identical — He didn’t have “one perfect way” of healing a person. Just as we are all individuals, His miracles were exactly what that person needed at the exact time and in the exact way they needed it.

There was a blind man who Jesus led away from the crowds, spit in his eyes, laid hands on him, and then asked him if he could see. At first, his sight was blurry, so Jesus laid hands on him again — and his sight was completely restored!

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Honesty and Grace

“Oh my soul, bless God. From head to toe, I’ll bless his holy name!
Oh my soul, bless Goddon’t forget a single blessing! He forgives your sins—every one. He heals your diseases—every one. He redeems you from hell—saves your life! He crowns you with love and mercy—a paradise crown. He wraps you in goodness—beauty eternal. He renews your youth—you’re always young in His presence.” — Psalm 103:1-5 (the Message)

 

Part of my desire to share my journey with friends and strangers alike is to be as real as humanly possible in the social media realm.

Social media is all about showing the best sides of ourselves, in the best lighting, through the perfect filter, and falling into the trap of wanting a life that truly isn’t reality. So today, I wanted to write a raw post about how I’ve been doing emotionally as well as physically.

Fighting cancer in general is hard. But fighting cancer naturally/alternatively has taken me to a whole new level of difficulty. I’m so new to being 100% in with holistic healing and wellness. This might be my second round with cancer, but to look myself in the eye every morning in the bathroom mirror and promise to not give up, no matter how much excruciating pain I’m in, really takes courage.

And I don’t always feel particularly courageous.

It’s making the decision (sometimes moment by moment) to put all my faith and trust in the Ultimate Healer.

When my veins don’t want to cooperate for treatment, when I’m having trouble sleeping, when I have to cancel plans AGAIN with friends because I’m feeling too exhausted or in pain to hang out, when I’m overwhelmed by all the emotions that come with being almost 30 years old and trying not to be envious of those around me who are doing life the “normal” way — starting families, buying homes, changing jobs, moving, etc. — I have to remind myself that everyone has something they’re dealing with. Maybe it’s not cancer, but every single person on the planet has something they’re working through, healing from, or struggling with. Their life is not my life, and I’m only equipped to handle my own.

And that’s okay.

I need to have grace with myself on the daily to accept where God has me right now, acknowledge the emotions and then let them go, and trust that the bigger picture will make so much more sense than the current view. Doesn’t mean I have to LOVE what’s happening at the moment, but I can accept it and work through it.

I am thankful for the network of support I’ve been blessed with. I am surrounded by some of the most incredible people who believe in what I’m doing and give me space to make the decisions I’m at peace with and what I feel is best for me and my body. It’s a longer journey than I expected (more on that later), but a necessary one, and I couldn’t do any of this alone.

A few weeks ago, I recorded a video to update everyone, what I’m doing for treatment, and giving a shoutout to those who have donated to help me continue to fight this naturally. If you are one of those people, THANK YOU. From the bottom of my heart. And if you feel led, here’s a link to the GoFundMe page that my wonderful friend and cancer-survivor sister, Katie Warren, created to help off-set the expenses of treatment and travel ❤

 

 

 

Bold Humility

“Caleb asked her, “What can I do for you?” She replied, “Do me a special favor. Since you have given me land in the Negev, give me also springs of water.” So Caleb gave her the upper and lower springs.” – Judges 1:14-15

There’s a bold ask deep inside each and every heart.

It’s that desire you’ve been pondering, hoping against hope for, wondering if and how God will come through.

So, what holds us back from asking? You have not because you ask not…

Acsah had a bold ask. And she knew the only way she would know the answer was by boldly and courageously approaching her father with it. With respect and humility.

I love this tiny snippet of Hebrew history and a painting of God’s great love and favor toward His children. Mentioned twice in the Old Testament, this story is so important to our walk with God. You might glaze over the short paragraph in Joshua and Judges, but it deserves a second look.

Acsah (daughter of the famed man of God — and Joshua’s trusted friend — Caleb) saw a need and went to her father for the means to fill it. She needed streams of water in the desert lands she had been given. And she knew he loved her enough to listen and grant her request…and he gave her all that she asked and more.

Don’t we all long for streams of blessing in the seemingly desert areas of our lives?

Yes, God already knows what we need. He knows before we even think of it. But He’s a good Father who loves His children so much that He wants us to come to Him with our needs and desires. He wants to hear our voice. He longs to draw near and show us His goodness in the desert.

I have “desert” places in my life that I am lifting to the Lord daily. We all have them. We have been blessed beyond measure as it is — our lives are rich with goodness and faithfulness of God — but, like Acsah, we have that need…“Lord, do me a special favor…”

Today, I’m challenging you to be humbly bold. To ask God for that special favor and see what He does with your courageous dream. He is ABLE. He will never fail you. If what you’re asking is in His will for your life, then you can be sure that He WILL do it.

And how can you know that it’s His will? Through the Holy Spirit. Through spending time in the Word and in prayer. When you hear His voice and have that assurance and peace…you know.

So learn from Acsah. Prepare for more than you can ask or imagine. Because He who calls you is more than capable of doing immeasurably more.

 

 

 

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