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Sabrina Gauer

Faith, Life & The Journey

Fighting with Figs

“Go back and tell Hezekiah, the leader of my people, ‘This is what the LORD God of your ancestor David says: I have heard your prayer; I have seen your tears. Look, I will heal youI will deliver you and this city from the hand of the king of Assyria…Then Isaiah said, “Bring a lump of pressed figs.” So they brought it and applied it to his infected skin, and he recovered.” – 2 Kings 20:4-7

 

King Hezekiah was sick. He was going to die. He had an enemy army coming to capture his city, and he was out of options. But through the fear, pain, and anguish, he faithfully turned to God.

And God not only told Hezekiah He was going to heal him, but He also gave the king the tools to do so — in this particular case, using figs to heal whatever the wound was that Hezekiah had, which could definitely be cancer since figs are very high in cancer-fighting properties!

I find myself once again searching for options better than what my current surgical oncologist is pressing to do; preventative, invasive reconstructive surgery followed by multiple rounds of radiation. Because I’m “young” and still have my “whole life to live”…as if there would be much quality of life after losing yet another half of my tongue, enduring that hellish surgery for the second time (and this time, so much worse), and recovering mentality, physically, spiritually…

No, thank you.

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The Return of a Formidable Enemy

“Heal me, O Lord, and I shall be healed; save me, and I shall be saved, for You are my praise.” Jeremiah 17:14

 

A few weeks ago, I received another diagnosis.

The oral cancer has returned. The cells in my tongue have decided to turn malignant once again. Strange, because normally, oral cancers return within the first year or “you’re in the clear” medically speaking. I was currently going on three years.

In an effort to continue to be full disclosure, as much as I can be, I have been waiting to break this news on a large scale until I had more information. Per my surgeon, it’s a very early stage cancer from what they can see so far, but I still need to do a few more tests to determine what’s going on.

Through what I can only describe as the peace that passes all understanding, I actually feel settled right now. Continue reading “The Return of a Formidable Enemy”

The Empty Stage

“I will praise you, Lord my God, with all my heart;                                                                                        I will glorify Your name forever.” – Psalm 86:12

 

If you could do anything in this life, beyond what you think is “possible”, what would it be?

I used to answer that question with, “Become a famous music artist, travel, and play shows.” That was literally all I wanted to do.

The thrill of the stage, the lights, and the pounding of the music. Having people in the crowd below you shouting your lyrics and being moved by what you created. It’s adrenaline-inducing and addicting. To be known as your music and identified with your ability and praised for it.

And then, life shifts that perspective.

In the grand scheme of things, music will always be a part of who I am. But it’s not my identity. I needed to learn that when I faced my surgery and recovering in the months after. That need to be known as my ability was washed away, replaced with a new identity — my worth in Christ.

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