“God is not man, that He should lie, or a son of man, that He should change his mind. Has He said, and will He not do it? Or has He spoken, and will He not fulfill it?” – Numbers 23:19 (ESV)
I have a really tough time with change.
As exciting as life can be sometimes with all of the different things that happen in our stories, it doesn’t mean it’s always smooth transitions into each new thing. And the only absolutely certain thing about life is that it WILL change.
For someone who has had a lot of change in her life, I’m still not 100% okay with it. Flexibility has never been a strength of mine; I’m a detail-oriented, punctual, high expectations type of person. And when plans switch up on me unexpectedly, or my carefully plotted out list isn’t checked off correctly, something inside of me literally feels uncomfortable.
Change can be scary. It induces anxiety and stress when I don’t feel in control. And even if I feel I’ve already learned to accept change as a normal, regular part of life – it still catches me by surprise and off-guard every time.
Lately, there’s been a lot of change in my life. Things have been coming at me in ways I never expected, and it’s all GOOD! But it’s a change to my routine, and I quickly slip into that space again where I’m trying to juggle all the pieces without taking a breath in between.
Here is a truth I’ve discovered: every season of life requires a new commitment to flexibility and trust. Whatever routine and schedule I had worked out for the last season doesn’t always work in the present circumstances.
And it’s all okay. It’s all just a part of the process.
God’s plan for our lives, if we let Him take control, is filled with hope, a sure future, and to prosper. If we trust that plan, and allow the change to grow us to become more like Jesus Christ in how we respond and act, then we are promised that “all things will work together for good” for those who love Him and keep His commandments! (Romans 8:28)
I’m still going to get frustrated sometimes when I’m in that “not yet” place. I’m still going to feel thrown off my game when the path changes to a sharp left before I was ready to take it. But He already knows where I’m going – He’s already gone there before me and made a way before I realized I needed it. “Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.” (Psalm 43:5) And that promise of a hope and a future is assurance that I don’t have to figure it out on my own. I just need to keep moving forward in faith.