“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” – Joshua 1:9
I was sitting in a plastic chair at the hotel pool, watching my friend’s kids as they splashed and jumped and played in the water. The scene could best be described as enjoyable chaos. The little boys would yell, “Sabrina! Look at me, I can do such-and-such like this!”, and then proceed to fearlessly leap into the deep end, or cannon-ball into the shallow end, or hold their breath for as long as they could underwater.
In the midst of all of this, their 4 year old sister was carefully and cautiously testing the water on her own. Her mom was close by, watching over her, but she would weigh her options of clinging to the pool wall or allowing her mom to carry her through the water where her feet couldn’t touch. The little girl was much more inclined to stay close to the wall, where she was completely in control and able to touch the bottom with her toes – while holding tightly to the cement lip of the pool – rather than allowing her mom to carry her into the deeper water.
And it hit me that I tend to do the very same thing.
How many times have you found yourself in a situation where you desperately want to just let go…to be able to dive fearlessly into the deep unknown, to release your fears…but it’s safe where you can hold on tightly to the wall! It’s safe where you can touch the bottom with your toes! It’s safe where you have at least some semblance of control! God’s standing right beside you with His hands reaching out, assuring you that He’s going to carry you through the deep, and you’re shaking your head. “No, that’s ok, God. It’s so much better right here, in this place where I can trust myself and my abilities.”
To truly let go is to truly trust. We too easily throw out “Christian lingo” into situations, like “Let go, let God!” and don’t actual believe what we’re saying. There is no 5-step plan to figure out what real peace and trust and rest looks or feels like. Because when you finally reach the breaking point…when your fingers are slipping from the wall and your feet hurt from straining to touch the floor…THAT’S when you know. That’s when His arms wrap around you and you find yourself at ease with where He’s leading you.
Let your Heavenly Father carry you through those deep unknowns. He won’t ever let you drown!