“Such confidence as this is ours through Christ before God. Not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God…” 2 Corinthians 3:4-5

Confidence. When you think of that word, what comes to mind? Being fearless, looked up to, without caring what other people think? Maybe the way someone carries themselves? One of those “top 25 things every single person should work on”? How about having full faith and trust that no matter what you do, say or feel, God is using it for His glory if you’re living in His will?

I’ve been leading worship since I was 11 years old. A music director at one of the churches we attended when I was growing up saw potential in the much younger version of me, and gave me the unique opportunity of joining the worship team for the main services. From then on, I had gotten a taste of both leading and performing- and the war between the two in the world of music and ministry.singing_rooftop_2013

Those verses out of 2 Corinthians really jumped out at me today. “Not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God.” As a worship director, musician, creative, and performer, there are plenty of times when it’s all too easy to be arrogant and have a big ego about what I’m doing. When the world is looking at you in admiration, you feel confident and strong and self-sufficient. And it’s the most dangerous place you can allow yourself to go.

I’m not going to claim that I have a handle on this. Because I’m human, and I struggle and falter and I slip. I’m not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. But God has directed my life into such a huge area of ministry and leadership, and it’s NOT my doing. My competence comes from God. If there is anything good or admirable in me, it’s only because of Jesus. And on those days when I feel like nothing is going right, I have no business being a leader, and why am I even trying?! That’s when He shows up, and His grace and glory is revealed, and people see JESUS…not me.

Confidence: knowing that God is using you for His purposes, and while you are humanly, fleshly and deprecatingly weak, He is renewing and strengthening you through His spirit. It’s never about you. It’s always about Him, His glory, and the eternal hope we have through Jesus Christ. I hope that encourages you today as you do whatever He’s called you to do. If He’s in it, you will not fail.